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Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Sometimes I Wonder
How did I get here? How did I get to this place in my life? Suddenly I am a mother...clueless but loving. So afraid of messing up and making mistakes. My eyes blink and suddenly I am a mother to four. Still clueless in some ways, but knowing when it comes to how to love my babies.
How did I get to be this age? Who made me in charge? Of four children??? Aren't I still learning? Do I have enough knowledge? Insight? Experience?
Do I have enough patience?
How can it be that I love it so much? Changing diapers, kissing boo-boos. Snuggling on the couch reading the same book over and over again. Make a meal, clean up a meal. Wash laundry, put it away, wash it again. Rinse and repeat. Over and over.
Yet there are so many moments of these groundhog days that put a lump in my throat. An unexpected "I love you", a thoughtful gesture, a beautiful drawing of our family. Watching my husband teach the kids how to paint, throw a ball, plant a seed.
I know without a doubt that God meant for me to be a mother to these children. And even though I make a lot of mistakes I hope they will always feel safe and loved.
I don't know what the future will bring. I don't know what challenges we will face or how we will choose to handle them. But I do know that I love this family with all that I am and all that I have.
Edited to add:
I actually didn't mean to post this. I often write blog posts just to get the thoughts out of my head. I used to be a writer, back before I had four kids in six and a half years. And I am so far removed from it now that I don't often share anything I write with others. My grammar stinks and I'm not that good at it anymore. But I accidentally posted this so here it is. Flaws and all.
How did I get to be this age? Who made me in charge? Of four children??? Aren't I still learning? Do I have enough knowledge? Insight? Experience?
Do I have enough patience?
How can it be that I love it so much? Changing diapers, kissing boo-boos. Snuggling on the couch reading the same book over and over again. Make a meal, clean up a meal. Wash laundry, put it away, wash it again. Rinse and repeat. Over and over.
Yet there are so many moments of these groundhog days that put a lump in my throat. An unexpected "I love you", a thoughtful gesture, a beautiful drawing of our family. Watching my husband teach the kids how to paint, throw a ball, plant a seed.
I know without a doubt that God meant for me to be a mother to these children. And even though I make a lot of mistakes I hope they will always feel safe and loved.
I don't know what the future will bring. I don't know what challenges we will face or how we will choose to handle them. But I do know that I love this family with all that I am and all that I have.
Edited to add:
I actually didn't mean to post this. I often write blog posts just to get the thoughts out of my head. I used to be a writer, back before I had four kids in six and a half years. And I am so far removed from it now that I don't often share anything I write with others. My grammar stinks and I'm not that good at it anymore. But I accidentally posted this so here it is. Flaws and all.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
It's A Boy!
Thomas Howard Clendenen arrived September 16th, 2011 at 8:10 p.m. He was 9 lbs. 9.4 oz. and 22 inches long. He has a head full of dark hair, dimples and looks just like Travis. He was named after Trav's dad who passed away many years ago.
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| Sweet Boy |
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| FOUR kids six and under! |
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| Mama and sweet Thomas |
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| Father and son |
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| Big sister Violet is so proud! |
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| On the way home |
I will post more pictures soon of our sweet baby.
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